Im so excited to become his wife I've waited for this moment for such a long time and on my journey in getting closer with the Lord i feel in my heart that this can only be another one of Gods wonderful blessings for me and for my family....There have been some major rough points getting to this moment and even still there are rough patches but we are working thru things and i know with loving one another and with Gods help we will get thru it all....My Landlord/Friends have offered us the use of there home to have our reception it will be a very small one because of not having my family here and the fact that we don't talk to his family those are the only things that sadden us both is that we cannot have our family's with us to celebrate that day with us...I try and not think of that as the month draws closer i am only trying to think of it as being a happy day for me and for everyone i know that my family may not be there in the physical sense but they will be spiritually and for that i am filled with joy.....The bishop at the local Mormon church has said that he will marry us for free its been a little bit of a struggle for me to say yes to that as i have had such issues with the church and there beliefs sense moving here but sense we are so tight with our budget i am seriously considering it....
I know that i do not have to be Mormon just because i am getting married by the bishop of the church which all of my ideas and all of my feelings on the whole subject has not changed at all i still feel the way i feel and it wont changed....We dont have rings,flowers,food or even a dress i dont even have money to buy any of that so i dont know what im gonna do :( My landlord has offered to sew me a dress secretly i was worried because i didn't want my dress looking like something out of little house on the prairie so i didn't confirm that i wanted to have her sew me one but the idea is becoming something i may have to consider since i dont have the money to buy myself anything :( all i do know is February is the month i am getting married whether it be in sweat pants or a sewn dress so either way doesn't matter to me.....
